went to take my pic today at la salle. walao it sucked man. they didnt even bother to adjust the lighting. plus my face i painstakinly made up for this look like shit la. i smile like shit. everything like shit.

and i was so scared! when i reached there... there were guys swarming the waiting area man . i was the only gal man! walao... so scary. laoz... SCARY MAN!

the person in the room called for "NEXT THREE" as i was talking to C.L.L.Y on the phone (thank god she called). as i spoke to her i waited for the ppl who were there before me to take action. but no one did. so i invited myself to the front of the row and went in to have my pic taken. hee... I CUT QUEUE! waha

man i lack alot of confidence to even look at the ppl ard me. sigh wad's wrong with me. sigh. i'm really afraid of orientation man.. .

met V.K.W.L & E.M.F at pizzahut. yes of all places pizzahut. that's SO not me man. even though i shared a meal with E.M.F, i still gotta chip in 4 bucks. laoz... 4 bucks! normally my meals are under 2 bucks. i'm a cheapo wad

and man... V.K.W.L is ... MAD she ordered more than ten drumsticks (damn small but when its alot... u think its madness) gawd. n me and E.M.F were trying very hard not to... *AHEM* nvm conclusion: she's bimbotic cant say now until THE day comes... hehe

went to meet J.N after they went back to work. didn't know A.L.S & MA came too. but anyway... agh nvm i'll juz say it. it was boring. i couldnt find the pair of pants i wanna get so we went from THIS FASHION to a shop in dhoby exchange & then to LEVEL ONE at far east.

i know i'm a "friend", but i dunno... sometimes i find that my "friends" go overboard and never fail to make use of me or juz... i dunno maybe they just don't realise. but. agh. it's like J.N wanted a pair of grey pants that didnt have her size in both THIS FASHIONS. we both tried the stuff we wanted in the fitting rooms, and after she tried it, she juz said," eh i throw it in, when u come out u help me ask the woman if there's my size" and walked off.

"why dont you ask her yourself"

and she juz said i'm more familiar with this place and tt's why she told me to ask(even when i'm still busy trying my pants)

then after i asked, there was really no size. so J.N told me to ask the lady if other outlets had that pair, and guess wad they did. i was left in the shop to do the asking and waiting for the response from the lady at the counter, while they conveniently went over to subway to order their stuff to eat.

after 10 mins, the lady came up to me saying there's a pair in chinatown so i asked her if she could do a transfer because chinatown was too far. so she asked me for my particulars. but it's not wad i want. it's hers. so i cant possibly give her my particulars right?

so i went over to subway to ask J.N to follow me back to give the lady her own particulars, because i dun even know which branch she wanted the pants to be transfered to. but J.N said "why dun u give her your own particulars"

i mean, come on. why am i doing all these? i feel being treated like a servant. but the little voice inside me didnt want to explode n create a scene

why do i have to be nice to ppl, when ppl dun treat me the same? throughout the whole thing A.L.S was making fun of me coz i like black, and was looking at black stuff all the time. what's wrong? and when he found out that i was a teacher in SJC, he joked abt it, and i felt VERY insulted.

but what have i done? i only called n smsed J.N last nite because she liked the clothes i wear and wanted to know where i got them for a long time, so i volunteered to take her to those places. tt's all, but i find my kindness turned to dust.

at subway, i was humiliated. "HOW COME U DID SO BADLY FOR UR A'LEVELS? " "U DIDNT DO WELL FOR O LEVELS EITHER RIGHT" "OH MY GOSH U DID WORSE THAN ME FOR O'LEVELS U KNOW. MY COUSIN MICHELLE GOT AAA FOR HER A'LEVELS" "I TOT U LAST TIME DAMN HARDWORKING ONE"

J.N's voice ain't that soft ok.

i went looking for my pants after that. and i sort of went my own separate way and tried stuff myself. then i got a call from J.N that they went across the road and were at THAT CD SHOP. i got a pair of black pants. there were two i tried from C.O.A.X that i really liked. but the one i decided to get didnt have the colour i want so i got the other. after my purchase i crossed the road and went to ROXY to meet them.

J.N got a bikini suit and then we went to mac. i was so bored i took out my visual communications book i borrowed from the library to read.

saw Olinda Cho sitting in front of me( although i noticed she was damn slim but her face is still damn fat) but i didnt care.

i juz wondered why i volunteered to help her. maybe i juz didnt see it coming. maybe everytime i go out with ppl i hoped something nice to happen. like hanging out with ppl is a joy n i'll be happy coz i'm not in HELL.


sigh.