juz came home from surprise bday bash.

it was very weird. all sorts of ppl coming together to celebrate someone's birthday, when her birthday was 5 days ago...

and what i'mhearing from her is, her birthday is lasting for a damn long time.. from the eve till tomorrow and i dunno when, she's meeting ppl to celebrate her bday... gawd. wad a lucky bitch

anyway. my bus pass has expired. like walao... TODAY of all days... had to look for small change coz all i had was $4(lukcily i brought cash out). bumped into my sec one kids n they offered to help me change money with shop keepers. haha. funny sight.

in return i treated them to ice cream MMMM YUMMY! from mac donald's of course. i cant afford expensive BENnJERRY's ice cream or Haagen Daaz... gawd... only rich kids eat them

they took me up and down the escalator and when i told them i gotta run they wanted to keep me at the third level... and exchange ice creams... coz they thought if i took their ice cream, and they took mine(mine was left with the cone only), i would spend more time with them haha

went to find curly boy and... SCARY EXPERIENCE DOOT DOOT DOOT!!! SO SCARY

but i got over it. met a kitty and a tomcat... dunno wad the tomcat was doing , keep grabbing hold of the neck of the kitty, as if trying to puncture its skin and all... gawd... after my attempts at chasing the tomcat away, the kitty still meowed for it and they met again and it didnt even resist the tomcat doing wadever it was doing to it.

then i was joking to curly boy that the kitty raped the tomcat's girlfriend, and was willing to lay down his life, and take any consequences for that act. gawd... poor thing

its like... what would curly boy do to a 8 yr old kid if the 8 yr old raped me. haha u know that kind of thing... gawd...

i expect him to do the same as wad the tomcat did to the kitty, but hehe, he said he'll slap me first for allowing the 8 yr old rape me. hehe


anyway. the whole day was all about waiting.


E.G waited like an hour for me to get ot suntec to pass her the items she and her sis orderd. but it was nothing for her, coz she was with church ppl eating.

but for me and curly boy, we were famished, and thirsty, and went around looking for cheap milkshake(which was outta the question... all the milkshakes we found were over $4... sigh... yes... sigh for us poor brats)

we ended up drinking 70c dispenser drinks from carrefour. man we were so hungry and tired of waiting that after the drink , we weren't in the mood to eat anymore. sigh. the rest of the gals were over at marina square's spagheddi's having snacks. gawd. and they took damn long to get to suntec to meet up with us.

they talked and talked and talked amongst themselves and i guess they forgot abt me and curly boy. sigh. i was thinking to myself- i wouldnt even know wad they are talking about anyway...

even when i asked questions, they didnt even know, they didnt even respond... that saddens me but it has always been like that. no one really pays attention to me. its as if i'm an invisible man

then i was thinking... why are they celebrating her birthday. why is her birthday so special? why a surprise party? why did i go? i'm not even close to her. why should i wait so long? why waste my mrt fares on this day? why spend my time waiting for the birthday gal to arrive(she took 2 hours) and was forced to sit at the table with ppl i dunno , when me and curly boy could go catch the band jamming at the bay? why deprive ourselves of enjoyment until when we could go, the band packed up to leave.....

how i wish i had friends other than curly boy. right now he's my best friend. even though mean at times, he still supports me in everything i do, and encourages me. i love him so much

i've updated the samples and finally NeON has a sample pic tt's red in colour.

just got two more orders for the G sisters. an A5 PSYCHEDELiC BOXiES card & a Pink NeON. juz finished doing the afternoon order and scanned it into the com. gonna do more stuff now... nite

woohoo!!! here comes my third customer!!! she ordered an orange NeON bookmark(4cm lettering) and an A5 NOM de PLUME with her name on it so cool!!! haha

after i go skipping i'm gonna go CP to get a fine tip marker to get it done wahahha so excited!

i just added marquees for the sample galleries of each item of the catalogue.

currently the catalogue has 4 items. more coming right up! so do check out my shop from time to time ok?

i'm discussing a deal with my potential 2nd customer now! woohoo

went to take my pic today at la salle. walao it sucked man. they didnt even bother to adjust the lighting. plus my face i painstakinly made up for this look like shit la. i smile like shit. everything like shit.

and i was so scared! when i reached there... there were guys swarming the waiting area man . i was the only gal man! walao... so scary. laoz... SCARY MAN!

the person in the room called for "NEXT THREE" as i was talking to C.L.L.Y on the phone (thank god she called). as i spoke to her i waited for the ppl who were there before me to take action. but no one did. so i invited myself to the front of the row and went in to have my pic taken. hee... I CUT QUEUE! waha

man i lack alot of confidence to even look at the ppl ard me. sigh wad's wrong with me. sigh. i'm really afraid of orientation man.. .

met V.K.W.L & E.M.F at pizzahut. yes of all places pizzahut. that's SO not me man. even though i shared a meal with E.M.F, i still gotta chip in 4 bucks. laoz... 4 bucks! normally my meals are under 2 bucks. i'm a cheapo wad

and man... V.K.W.L is ... MAD she ordered more than ten drumsticks (damn small but when its alot... u think its madness) gawd. n me and E.M.F were trying very hard not to... *AHEM* nvm conclusion: she's bimbotic cant say now until THE day comes... hehe

went to meet J.N after they went back to work. didn't know A.L.S & MA came too. but anyway... agh nvm i'll juz say it. it was boring. i couldnt find the pair of pants i wanna get so we went from THIS FASHION to a shop in dhoby exchange & then to LEVEL ONE at far east.

i know i'm a "friend", but i dunno... sometimes i find that my "friends" go overboard and never fail to make use of me or juz... i dunno maybe they just don't realise. but. agh. it's like J.N wanted a pair of grey pants that didnt have her size in both THIS FASHIONS. we both tried the stuff we wanted in the fitting rooms, and after she tried it, she juz said," eh i throw it in, when u come out u help me ask the woman if there's my size" and walked off.

"why dont you ask her yourself"

and she juz said i'm more familiar with this place and tt's why she told me to ask(even when i'm still busy trying my pants)

then after i asked, there was really no size. so J.N told me to ask the lady if other outlets had that pair, and guess wad they did. i was left in the shop to do the asking and waiting for the response from the lady at the counter, while they conveniently went over to subway to order their stuff to eat.

after 10 mins, the lady came up to me saying there's a pair in chinatown so i asked her if she could do a transfer because chinatown was too far. so she asked me for my particulars. but it's not wad i want. it's hers. so i cant possibly give her my particulars right?

so i went over to subway to ask J.N to follow me back to give the lady her own particulars, because i dun even know which branch she wanted the pants to be transfered to. but J.N said "why dun u give her your own particulars"

i mean, come on. why am i doing all these? i feel being treated like a servant. but the little voice inside me didnt want to explode n create a scene

why do i have to be nice to ppl, when ppl dun treat me the same? throughout the whole thing A.L.S was making fun of me coz i like black, and was looking at black stuff all the time. what's wrong? and when he found out that i was a teacher in SJC, he joked abt it, and i felt VERY insulted.

but what have i done? i only called n smsed J.N last nite because she liked the clothes i wear and wanted to know where i got them for a long time, so i volunteered to take her to those places. tt's all, but i find my kindness turned to dust.

at subway, i was humiliated. "HOW COME U DID SO BADLY FOR UR A'LEVELS? " "U DIDNT DO WELL FOR O LEVELS EITHER RIGHT" "OH MY GOSH U DID WORSE THAN ME FOR O'LEVELS U KNOW. MY COUSIN MICHELLE GOT AAA FOR HER A'LEVELS" "I TOT U LAST TIME DAMN HARDWORKING ONE"

J.N's voice ain't that soft ok.

i went looking for my pants after that. and i sort of went my own separate way and tried stuff myself. then i got a call from J.N that they went across the road and were at THAT CD SHOP. i got a pair of black pants. there were two i tried from C.O.A.X that i really liked. but the one i decided to get didnt have the colour i want so i got the other. after my purchase i crossed the road and went to ROXY to meet them.

J.N got a bikini suit and then we went to mac. i was so bored i took out my visual communications book i borrowed from the library to read.

saw Olinda Cho sitting in front of me( although i noticed she was damn slim but her face is still damn fat) but i didnt care.

i juz wondered why i volunteered to help her. maybe i juz didnt see it coming. maybe everytime i go out with ppl i hoped something nice to happen. like hanging out with ppl is a joy n i'll be happy coz i'm not in HELL.


sigh.

WAHAHA i'm happy!!! and smiling like shit... why? dun tell u wahahahahhaah
ok hint. it has gotta do with this

made this in sec two. i know its not comparable to the work i'm doing now la... but ... sigh... so embarassing

today wasnt a good day. its as if i cant live a day without being scolded.

its to do with this bloggy shop. haiz... nvm maybe it hasnt gotta do with the shop. it has gotta do with me. THEY juz cant stop picking on me for once.

THEY say the shop is illegal. and the government may fine me. "now the government is very particular about all these things and are hunting people down"

WTF man. i HATE THEM. THEY have to always ruin everything for me. every success i attain will collapse to rubble in seconds with juz one lash of THEIR tongues. it's the same when i got the teaching job. HE told HER that he "don't want her(referring to me) to go and hai ( harm in english) the children" when i teach. it made me so upset i couldnt stop crying.

i'm a weakling. i HATE this life

going offline to do my music theory now(i feel like a loser... i'm level 8 now and still doing grade 2 theory. wad a loser...)

tml's photo taking at la salle day!!! woohoo so happy gonna dress up and make up so it'll turn out well tml. woohoo... hope it does...

here i am again... rushing to say sth here... cos SHE'll chase me to bed in a moment or so...

the morning was rough (as usual- its either the day, afternoon, or night, or everything that i get screamed at).
SHE picked on me again, say i tell ppl nonsense abt HER. if not for my mouth how would ppl know SHE is very fierce and is scared of HER...

of course i retaliated and shouted back. news spread fast. even when SHE say she only talked to R.H.D n V.L.S.C. oh well SHE juz finds it hard to accept. and i juz found out from V.L.S.C that relatives also talk bad abt her, without me triggering it. of course at home, if ppl dun like u, they wun say it at ur face but pretend and smile and nod even when they dun like ur gesture rite.

SHE then picked on the new cup i bought, say it takes up alot of space, cant even balance on the rack for it to dry... but hey... haven't THEY been telling me my whole life that, THEY'll buy me wadever i want. well it dun seem so.

SHE says i only use the com and watch tv everyday, never work only know how to spend money. WTF man. i shouted back, saying i stay up so late juz for my bloggy shop la! i'm indirectly working la! i do art till so late in my room for my sake, to earn the little cash i need to buy stuff i want. and since i started work, i dun even ask THEM for money, except the things THEY need to buy.

wadever la, i've never been good at arguing. always think of wad to talk back at THEM after a long time.



was scared to go out too early, only left the house at abt 2.30 to meet curly boy at hougang station. i got a pair of pants he liked from bossini & i got myself a skirt last week to match it.

i was happy to be in his company but, the moody mood set in...sigh, even after he surprised me by standing outside YAMAHA to pick me up after my electone lesson. sigh...








anyway i've added links to the sample pics so you can get a better view of it.

still juz sittin here waiting for my first customer...

woohoo i've got three tiems up for grabs now.

i was juz discussing a deal with one of my potential customers!!! haha so happy! our conversation has ended and woohoo promotion really works!

the first 5 customers will get $1 off each item they purchase. woohooo

and she pointed out i dun have prices marked for each item. (yar hor!)

gonna do that tml la. so engrossed with making samples till i forgot.

gtg sleep now. need to wake early in case i have housework( ok i definitely have to do housework, nothing new), and to do music theory.

YAY

curlyboy has just left. we had lunch and started watching the count of monte cristo after washing the dishes n cleaning the dining table.

came online and at the same time do some colouring. i'm gonna try to complete the sample picture of Psychedelic boxies, and then upload it.

today was good. no bickering or arguing. YAY and he didnt become moody which was a bonus whoohoo so happy!

we ate ice cream after the first disc and then had some soya bean milk and beancurd in between. i'm super full even after i gave him almost all of my porridge (he had abt 4 bowls) and i think i need to do skipping after this.

seriously, i eat little but snack quite abit. plus i stopped exercising, not counting the sit ups i do every night before i sleep (coz tt's called toning, it dun help u lose weight!). gawd. i need to shed the kilos man... gained like 3-4 kgs since the last week of school. thought the humans camp would enable me to lose like 1kg, but instead, i gained! the food was just so scrumptous la! and i felt guilty to leave the leftovers behind... so i forced myself to eat up...

well that paid a price as u can see my waistline increasing and i have to forgo wearing sexy clothes for the moment haha. i need to lose weight to fit into the many dream clothes i;ve bought and never wore. they are just sitting there pretty as if they are my trophies. well dear trophies, trust me i'll be able to fit into u by nxt nxt week ok?

ok blog blog, colour colour, music music, tv tv, must also exercise excercise... impt! from today onwards, EXCERCISE!!!

lemme plan sth now.
sat and sun are breaks (because my neighbour's son will be back home from army camp and it's awkward to skip as if goes in and out of the house... imagine seeing som crazy 19 yr old in night gown jumpin her butt off... not a very good sight...)
monday is a must to swim. so swimming days are monday, wednesday or friday. and i can skip whenever i want. ok set.

gonna complete the sample pic for psychedelic boxies now!! and i've got some bday presents to make for nxt wk woohoo...

i just watched the encore of child of our time.

damn it's kinda boring these days.

my daily routine would be to wake up (get a scolding either at this point of time) ,pack my bed, brush teeth, have breakfast (or get scolded here), read the papers (or here plus the previous), shit as i continue reading the papers, and be prepared for housework(and the combi of all the scoldings or juz here).

then, i would take a shower, pack my room(coz SHE says so), wait for com to boot up, and start to make adjustments and additions to my bloggy shop.

yes yes, i woke up to a scolding.

SHE claims to have "polished" the dining table, and i had to wake up at 9 to leave finger prints all over it again as i have my breakfast there reading The Straits Times.

Then, i went to the sink to wash up my stuff. SHE came over and said, "Don't juz wash the bottom, the top also!" as she pointed to the areas, as if i'm an inefficient maid.

blah blah blah. so much for a day. i'd rather bury my head doing art n music than take HER orders, let HER boss me around, let HER take her pmsing tantrums out on me, let HER...




my life is not like it seems on the surface. i crave freedom, love and appreciation. but i cant attain that in this silly little HELL that i live in. it entwines me in hate, puzzles and confusions as THEY brainwash me with untruths, making me lose confidence in myself and wadever i do, making me feel like a worthless pile of dirt, when i know i can go beyond this.


my life is filled with limitations, like now, V.L.S.C is having fun, clubbing with classmates. Some friends would be having supper at Jalan Kayu, or watching a soccer match, staying over at each other's houses, enjoying each others company.

but me, yeah what about me?

restrictions. i can't have the fun i want. i'm tired of this life. but well i've learnt that i need to persevere and move on. because one day, i will be free. no more being suicidal and all. my future is bright ahead. i just need to wait a little longer. just a little bit.

so to cure the boredom, i came online for a to check my mail (yar me checking mail when others are living a life they want).


but hey. i shan't be negative. because there are people out there in homes, in even harsher environments, harsher emotional abuse they are facing. or some who are just like me, but do not think like i do. they think of death, think of mutilating themselves... hey. you out there who's just like me or worse than me in my life, stop thinkin stupid. move on like i did. if u dun live to a ripe old age because of suicide or some compulsive illness, i will... i will... i dunno... u need to help yourselves la! come talk to me!!!






oh well....





read this and i really reccomment that you check this out, its kinda cool!


Kids Really Think Quickly!!


TEACHER : Maria, go to the map and find North America.
MARIA : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Maria!
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TEACHER : Why are you late, Frank?
FRANK : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
FRANK : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN : You told me to do it without using tables!
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Glenn, how do you spell "crocodile?"
GLENN : K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong
GLENN : Maybe it s wrong, but you asked me how I spell it!
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD : H I J K L M N O!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
DONALD : Yesterday you said it's H to O!
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't
have ten years ago.
WINNIE : Me!
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Goss, why do you always get so dirty?
GOSS : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Millie, give me a sentence starting with "I."
MILLIE : I is...
TEACHER : No, Millie..... Always say, "I am."
MILLIE : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Can anybody give an example of COINCIDENCE?
TINO : Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time."
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree,
but also admitted doing it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't
punish him?"
LOUIS : Because George still had the axe in his hand.
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON : No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
___________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Clyde, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your
brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, teacher, it's the same dog!!
__________________________________________________________
TEACHER : Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when
people are no longer interested?
HAROLD : A teacher

after hours and hours of editing, finally i'm contented and can proceed to setting up the catalogue divider.

more pics have been uploaded in my profile section

one item is up in the catalogue for now !!!!

NOM de PLUME features black n white name design.

the current sample is done on A4 size paper and you can request for other sizes too. other mono colours applicable so do send me email for ur very own request.
this can serve as the cover of a card, a note book cover...

what i used it for last time was a test pad cover. as in i wrap my testpad in plastic sheet, so the name design goes in front as a cover, to make it look like a book.


ppl who view this bloggy shop, please do tag me ok!!! thanks so much!!!

man i'm still trying to adjust the layout of the front page. dun lik ethe scroll bars.

V.L.S.C juz came over to borrow a shawl for her partying tonight, and also to get back her stry book.

major editing for my bloggy shop had to be stalled for a while while i helped her with the addition of the archives and other stuff....

well off she goes and i'm back at editing... man...

i'm back. just edited the main page of the blog.

so happy today. V.L.S.C got what she wanted, and i saw and bought wad i wanted too!!! yay she got the white goddess lookin spaghetti pearl top with some accessories. went to heeren too to get her basket. u know those fish market aunty kind of basket? yeah she's going clubbin with that... gawd... dunno wad she's thinkin...

then i got my matching skirt to my curly boy's pants. we're gonna get it soon... haha and wad's more, the pants is having a discount now so woohooo almost half price i guess... so... YAY phoned him immediately to tell him yay yay

but well i really need to lose weight. my waist is expanding and i dun look good in skirts coz the fats keep sticking out from the part above the zip- i can't cram it in anymore... sigh

i'm abit pissed now coz some suckerfied student of mine said my bloggy shop is lame. excuse me. who are u talking to man.

i really hate it when ppl insult and criticise ppl's hard work and effort. yar i know they dun realise it and may be juz jokin but i really take it seriously.

never ever offend me suckers. especially when it comes to art. i really put alot of effort and patience into it and i hope ppl juz learn to appreciate it even when they dun like it. and this bloggy shop is about my passion. how can u treat my passion like shit and say its lame. shallow. YOU are shallow. i detest and despise such souls. pathetic.


i'm going to remove my credits now

V.L.S.C juz came.

ok a brief summary of wad i juz updated.

i enabled blog comments so now ppl can start smearing paint over my posts.

then i asked her how to add coordinates to direct the map to a new page but oh well she dunno... sigh... and the guy on friendster hasn't msg me yet... sigh...

wad else... erm... ok i added on the mainpage a summary of what the whole bloggy shop is about. need to do adjustments later when i get back or maybe tml if i dun have the time.

and i think i made the titles move. erm... wait... maybe i did those last night... err.... ok my mind is a little chaotic right now... rushing!

going far east coz she needs to get a top for tml's clubbin' class outing. and i'm runnin' late coz SHE told me to go stir onions in a pot for spaghetti which is being served now... ok i havn't changed and got myself sweaty... gawd.... but i will make it!!! yay

ok i'm going off to watch CSI now...

but first, I WANNA TELL EVERYONE I HAVE JUST MADE ALL MY HEADERS MOVE FROM SIDE TO SIDE!!! WOOHOO!!!!

erm.. .wad else did i do? er.... oh ya ... i managed to add a header with the word "CATALOGUE" in the links section. but it's blank as u can see. so erm... yeah... gotta wait and be patient for the best to appear.

woohoo... gonna start selling stuff nxt week i guess... need to figure out how to add the catalogue first... would prefer it to be mapped on another page... sigh but i dunno how... think i have to contact the person who mapped this whole thing. he's a genius, whoever he is. if not... well this will do. i am contented. YAY

gonna get a bluetooth hopefully by the end of this week so i can transfer pics into this stinky com and update ppl on more happenings!!!

off to CSI now

hey hey hey! i'm back again. just did the household chores. well this time i'm for a very short while to check on the layout and try to at least add the film loop and get it workin.

so happy! gonna cook for curly boy later after i paid my organ fees, or should i cook first then pay.... let's see whether time permits. i need to get a cable to transfer stuff from my nokia 7370(woohoo my darling dream phone) into the com.

sigh if i cant add another page on the map, i would have to resort to putting the catalogue in the links section adn remove the credits... we'll see .


filmloop here i come!

Alrightey... the com and internet is abit laggy.

i've updated the profile section and woohoo was trying to add a filmloop of my recent history( because the pics are recent... trying to find old ones), and the internet juz went down. n oh well i caused alot of trouble just now while washing the dishes.

i broke the biggest bowl in the whole of HELL and sigh...

okay. the whole day i was trying to figure out how to add an extra page on the map. but now there are only 4 pages... you know, tag, profile, links and blog. i need another one for my catalogue... like erm, you click on my kitty and it will direct u to the shop catalogue... that kidna thing... sigh... but to no avail la... my little brain ain't functioning that well.

anyway, i have to log off now because SHE will scold me again. need to prevent more sorrows in my life.

ok i have added a tag-board in the Paint My Sorrows section.

cant seem to figure out how to add in the extra table... maybe it's because of the map function. sux. oh well i'll figure that out tml. SHE expects me in bed now

i got home from father's day dinner at sar sim's about an hour ago.

it didnt really look like a celebration.

THEY just came home. SHE sux. Came into the house with high spirits and juz because we didnt turn off the main switch SHE kicked up a big fuss and picked on everyone, even when i, the innocent whose towel hanger fell onto the floor by accident got blamed for throwing it onto the floor. Life outside is much better than this. i hate it here. this is hell.

oh well. i came online to update my layout. uploading the pic was a great feat. maan. it's finally done. after so many many delays because of my laziness coupled with my buziness.

gonna add in my catalogue divider and see how i can adjust the length of the web... i dun really know the term haha. but oh well... gonna start doing it now before SHE starts chasing me to bed.

YAY finally got the net to work.

Been scanning the latest edition of the blog background into the com.

Added two cats. i like the black cat better. hee!!!

The musical notes were added the last minute too.

Intended to do a collage, but oh well, to save me the trouble with cutting and pasting, i thought the most convenient way would be to draw part of my arrangement score for CAGE in myself.

Someone asked me where the spida in the web was... hehe... actually... i dunno how to add a spida now, come to think of it, with the mess taken up by the notes... there's hardly any space for a spida to hang down from its silk. so i guess... no spida for webby!

Oh well. Now i have to think of how to add in the catalogue.

Off to bed. Church tml and meeting V.L.S.C for mass, and we'll have J.YK.J.H's mom's shop's Meng Chiam Queh for breakfast at Lorong Ah Soo with her Ah ma.

Wish i could do such stuff with my own ah ma, live with her, dine with her, talk to her, play with her, joke with her........................................................... FAT HOPE L.D.W! in your next life maybe.... *sigh*

The LivingDeadArt Blog Shop Background was completed today. It Took the whole damn day maan... from the sketching of LivingDeadWitch's eyebrows to the spiral thingy.... Major editing sooon! gonna add cats and all.